I’ve had a rough week. I’ve cried in front of my students twice this week. I’m feeling like I’m on the verge of being fired, like the administration is getting their ducks in a row in order to fire me. What is even more eerie is that when I say things like “Am I going to get fired over this?” they just look at me and change the subject.
The thing that makes it so odd is that some of the problems that they are having with me, such as not following the curriculum, are things that I truly thought were not required. If there was a problem, why didn’t somebody mention it any sooner when I have turned in the last 8 weeks worth of lesson plans? Why did my team tell me that they were not following it as well. Why am I the only person in hot water when my entire team was also not following the textbook? If my grades were not being done correctly, they why did I not hear about it until a phone call 2 days before the marking period is over? I’ve been entering grades all year, I’ve been turning in my gradebook every week.
I was called yesterday morning and told that I needed to have every assignment from the semester turned in by the end of the day so this one little girl who is failing could have a chance to make it up. I panicked, how could I accomplish that? Especially considering that a lot of my things are on my computer at home. My academy director (assistant principal) told me that she didn’t understand why it would be a problem for me. Forget the fact that I had students all day that needed instruction.